Am I Crazy?

Is it common having thought that your son is dying and soon will die when he got sick? Or is it only me?

This feeling so overwhelming, makes me hard to breathe. I cried only by looking his pale face, his tiny fingers, and his messy hair.

Thx God, he's getting better after a week having diarrhea and high fever. I can breathe again, I can smell his smile again :)